躲在世界的角落

现在的心情最适合用几米的一本书
《躲进世界的角落》

我阅读过这本书
但是刚刚又再拿起并翻阅
发现它很适合我整个人 这个心情

我不是个喜欢和群体活动的一个人
越长越大 会发现 配合大家 和群体活动
是一件非常累的事情

因为你配合不到所有人
世界也没有十全十美
只有当整个世界只有你一个人
那就有属于自己的十全十美

我更不是个爱把事情说出来的人
即使受了委屈 即使受了病痛 即使被赞许 即使多么的不开心
我也不能理解为什么事情总往内心塞去

曾经我听过电台问过一个问题
“是什么事情让你觉得自己长大了”
我的答案应该是 当我把所有的事情都往心里塞时
有些话 说出来了对世界没有帮助 而且也不会增加喜悦感
悲伤的事 说出来 也只会让别人陪你一起悲伤
安慰的话 我也很会安慰自己
长大了 就是一个感觉 把很多事都承担起来

每个人都需要关心
而我却总是喜欢把自己变得不需要让人关心
我一切都过得很好
或许很多时候
我都把别人对自己的关心
抗拒在门外

我不知道 可能世界上 会有和我一样的人
who knows
世界太多不开心了
我会希望 我能多给一些些 开心与关心

和大家一起时 我会嬉闹说一些会让人讥笑的话
只为了让大家的气氛热闹一些

还是一个人 的气氛
比较舒服 不需要去附和



我只想躲在世界的角落。

J.

忙完了这一个月
大学生涯就这样结束啦

不舍得 和大学朋友即将的离别
和不舍得 再也没办法见到啦
以后 也不懂会不会大家约出来一起聊天

最近不懂走什么霉运
前阵子 和妈妈不停的有口角之争
又不小心把车给弄伤了
几天后 竟然把某事物给弄不见啦
让我好难过 真的很难过

即使到现在 想起来 泪水还是能一秒涌进眼眶
愧疚感真的很深

很感动那像逗小孩一样的安慰
东西不见可以买过
该庆幸的是没把自己弄不见

这是有得必有失吗?
即使如此 我还是很愧疚

所有倒霉的事 可以让它就结束在那事物的不见吗

I.

I am here again. 

I think the best time for me to update blog is everytime I using my laptop.

Found out that recently have no time to study at all.

I lost, sometimes.

Am I running on the right track?

The guilty moment ever is I did not manage well to do my IP with my partner.

So what? I still try to take time to do extra work on this.

At least, as OC, I am happy with what I do now.

I know what am I really doing.

The moment that you busy-ing on event rather than doing nothing.

You will learn many things as you never handle before.

This time just being a treasurer.

After experienced, I wish to be a director of the event.

Ya, think big so that you able to achieve big.

Will seek for advice from somebody first before that.

In the other way, I am still thinking I am taking risk.

But who knows, high risk high return. aha.

I am year 3 students already, final year. 

If everything can restart for my university life. 

I would choose to join the club at the beginning

so that can become OC many time with different positon.

However, we know that there is no IF exist.

Just let it be.

So I have no regret this time.

Make every decision with no regret.

That's your life. It's my life.

I have to get back to my normal life, get back to the right track soon.

Please get out from my mind as soon as possible.

I don't want every puzzle full of my mind.

It's crazy, when you want to concentrate,

then something pop out from your mind.

Horrible, terrible, vegetable..

pray hard.... :)

Get back my life soon.